Idleness

Hello everyone!

It has been a month to the day since I last got on to post. Due to the inability to get on to my new beta account and because I haven't had any real thought provoking moments (I know appalling!)

But now I am back and lately I have spent a ridiculous amount of time trying to figure out what motivates me, what drives me and why I like to just sit around so much.

Now I don't want you to think that I don't like life or that I just sit in a depressed stupor all day but I must admit the thought of work makes me feel not so good.

With a mission less than three months away I see this as a serious problem and as of yet I have found nothing to remedy the problem.

If any of you understand the color code I am a Yellow, and for those of you who don't understand that means that I am spontaneously fun and that I would rather play than do anything...all of you who know me know that this is more than true.

So as I was saying, I just cant find anything to really drive me, even the gospel. Now I haven't stopped doing what I am supposed to be doing but I just don't feel this great drive to be great or to be the best or even compete for that matter.

Anytime something comes up that I will have to work for it all of a sudden becomes not so important.

I just had an epiphany as a I was looking through an old Seminary folder, GOALS!!

This is going to end abruptly but I just figured it out...over and out.